There are moments when old letters or early writings resurface – sometimes by accident, sometimes deliberately. When that happens, what stands out isn’t the words themselves, but the feelings that rise while reading them. Not the feelings we have now, but the ones that once compelled us to write at all.
Moving Along the Arc
Those feelings mattered. They were real at the time, and they carried weight. They moved us forward, even if we didn’t know where we were going. What we wrote then became part of the arc of our lives, whether we recognized it or not. There is no right or wrong way to feel about those words now – only acknowledgment of the role they played in shaping who we became.
Time has a way of tending to wounds, both in the heart and in the mind. Something written in youth often carries urgency, intensity, and certainty. Years later, the same words can feel quieter, more distant. Not because they were mistaken, but because experience has widened the space around them. The words stay where they were. We move along the arc.
Searching Never Stops
It’s often said that youth is wasted on the young. Perhaps that’s true. But wisdom isn’t diminished by that idea – it depends on it. It takes a lifetime to be able to look back and see the arc clearly, to recognize how even the difficult moments contributed to its shape. With distance, events that once felt random or unfair begin to find their place.
The heart of youth is a searching heart. It reaches outward, looking for meaning, answers, belonging. Time doesn’t harden that impulse. It opens it. What once searched with urgency learns to recognize truth when it appears, even if it arrives quietly. Along the arc of a life, the heart doesn’t close – it clarifies.
Sound Carries Breath, Rhythm, and Emotion
Over the years, I began hearing some of my earlier writing in musical form. What surprised me wasn’t the music itself, but how it changed my relationship to the words. Hearing them sung – rather than read silently on a page – placed them somewhere outside of me. They no longer felt fixed or demanding. They felt located in time.
I also noticed how sound alters the way words are received. Some people who were hesitant to read my writing, worried they might intrude on something private, were willing to listen. Listening created distance rather than closeness. It allowed the words to exist without being examined or questioned. Meaning didn’t need to be negotiated; it arrived.
Sound carries breath, rhythm, and emotion. Written language passes through the mind first, shaped by memory and interpretation. Sound moves differently. It meets the body before the intellect. Each listener hears something different, because each of us stands at a different point along our own arc.
At Our Age, We Have Understanding
There are moments now when I encounter words I once wrote and think, foolish boy. Not with regret, and not with embarrassment – but with understanding. That reaction isn’t judgment. It’s recognition. Education earned through a life lived doesn’t erase earlier versions of ourselves. It gives them context, placing them exactly where they belong.
Along the arc, nothing is wasted – not the certainty, not the confusion, not even the mistakes. They remain behind us, doing the quiet work of shaping who we are still becoming.
If you’re looking for music to reflect on, here’s a compilation:
Let’s Have a Conversation:
What thoughts and emotions are evoked when you read your earlier writings – journals, letters, etc.? Do you look at them with understanding, nostalgia, compassion, or something else?